So I've been tryin to get back on the wagon with being more intentional with my Bible reading as of late, and while the results haven't exactly worked out, on the rare occasion I get it done, it always comes out applying eerily well to the situation at hand. Some might say that you just naturally read your own situation and thoughts into anything you look at, and I'd have the same results reading the newspaper, but I'll hold to my natural ability to disagree.
All that aside, tonight I'm reading John 12(found here for reference)
and something struck me as funny. The word, "hosanna," as my footnotes told me, was an old word meaning both, "to save" and is also a word of praise. Indeed, good ol' wikipedia bears out similar info where it also notes that the original Hebrew word, "hoshana" was mostly identified with the Feast of Sukkot, or the Feast of Tabernacles, which in part commemorated the wandering of the Israelites in the desert. (it also celebrated the yearly harvest in their new realm of the Promised Land, so nice dichotomy there) So the reason I mention all of this is that the reason why I keep "falling off the wagon" in regards to pretty much anything spiritual is that my attitude just doesn't fit it. I tend to be more focused on the fact that I feel depressed, or tired, or angry, etc. Why should I focus on worship and prayer, when I just wanna be focused on bein down? But that's the thing, praise and prayer go hand in hand because being grateful to God and being desperate to get out of your situation do to! Why do I continually fall back on believing things need to be right before I reach back out to Him, rather than reaching out first? Why do I feel like I gotta stop feeling depressed before I can spend some quiet time alone with the Father? I wanna get through the crashing waves and the storming sea of Galilee BEFORE I go alone up to the mountain to pray, when it should so obviously be the other way around!
Anyways, my two cents about where I'm at...
