Saturday, March 28, 2015

Lazarus

Mary, Martha, and Lazarus were good people. When we were out on the road, their house was one place that we always knew we could stop at, it was the closest we had to home in those days. Mary was the perfect hostess, remembering not only everyone's name(a bit of a feat when you consider how many of us there were sometimes) but she remembered every conversation we'd had with her and could follow up at the drop of a hat, despite there sometimes being months between our visits. Mary loved to read, and I usually had a book or two on me while we travelled, so she'd always pushing me for reading suggestions, and inevitably would have four or five to suggest herself. She'd remember what I'd been reading the last time she'd seen me, and she'd make sure to have read it too, almost like it was just to have an excuse to talk about it with me. This would have been impressive enough, but she did it with everyone. Thomas was a huge soccer fan, and she always knew about any recent big games to talk to him about, while she was the only person on earth I think who cared about those weird indi albums Phillipe was listening to. Heck, she's the only person I'd ever met who could genuinely make Judas smile.
Martha was Mary's opposite. She was quiet, and I barely ever heard her speak, but I swear to you, we would all would have been dead in less than a year if it hadn't been for her. She had been a nurse at some point, and even served in the army for a while. She made sure we were always in one piece and gave us all full check ups when we stopped in. What's more important was that she listened. There's something about her that no matter what was on your mind or bothering you, it would come out within mere minutes of meeting Martha. Mary always had something to say, Martha just had to look at you. She knew exactly how to make you feel better too. She could cook like no other, and I swear she put something truly addictive in her pies. She did our laundry, mended our clothing, and basically was our mom at every opportunity.
Both of them lived with their older brother Lazarus. He'd been in the service for years, and had stories that could entertain anyone. At some point he'd been married, but his wife had passed away. He'd invited them to come stay with him after that. Who was taking care of who depended entirely on who you asked and who else was listening at the time.
So when we'd heard that Lazarus was sick, we'd all immediately began packing up, thinking we'd be there before nightfall. But Jesus said we weren't going. At first, I thought it was going to be another one of those distance healing things, like with the city councilman's daughter, but Jesus never said anything about it. We were camping out at some highway rest stop in Indiana at the time, and it seemed like we were just killing time. Jesus had a few healings come up, but nothing spectacular, and certainly no crowds were there. It wasn't a major through point, and a sizeable truck stop up the road ensured that it wasn't even a necessary bathroom stop for most. Then, after a week, Jesus suddenly started packing up and announced we were leaving. Lazarus needed us to wake him up. John looked at him like he'd stated we had to go was Lazarus' car. It might be a favor you'd do for a friend next door, but not drive across the state for it. "Why not just let him sleep?"
Jesus looked up as if he'd remembered to grab an extra pair of shoes and said, "Because he's dead, and I'm going to show you something awesome" We finished packing up and got in the road, but I don't think anyone said anything for hours after that. Just pointed looks and head tilts whenever Jesus was thought to not be looking. What was going on?
When we arrived, I knew Jesus had been right. You don't get that many black cars out front of a house without threatening the president. It was a wake for sure. Lots of hushed voices in the front room, and piles of flowers and cards by the door. In the kitchen were rows of casserole dishes and plastic forks. It had the awful feeling of an awkward high school graduation party for someone you barely knew. Martha, of course, was busy trying to sort everyone out, and trying to get bags, coats, and cars directed to where they needed to go.  Mary, though, had me freaked out. She looked like she was barely keeping it together, not saying a word as we all filed in and said our condolences. Then Jesus walked in last. She ran out of the room, then out of the house. She got as far as the back yard, when Jesus, following slowly, finally called out to her saying her name.
She stopped and looked back at him, a face full of rage and pain, her eyes were wet, and her cheeks swollen from held back sobs. The rest of us stayed inside, watching like voyeurs through the back house windows, like we knew we shouldn't have been watching, but couldn't think of anything else we could do. Instead, we watched in anticipation of what they'd say to each other.
After a few moments of tense silence, Mary said angrily, "You could have saved him. If you'd shown up for just one second when we needed you, when I needed you, you could have done it. But what now? I know you could do anything if you just said it. What would bring the world to an end if you asked it? What have I got left to give you? She finally let the tears and the sobs go. Her head dropped, her shoulders sagged, and she just shook. Jesus walked up and put his arms around her. After a few minutes, he started crying too. It was hard to see him cry, like there was something more to it. I think as long as I live, even with all the other things I've seen and done, I'll never forget that night, watching Jesus and Mary cry together. At some point, I saw Martha standing just to the side of them. I never saw her walk up, so fixed in the other two I'd been watching, she was just there. After a bit, Jesus looked up and saw her. He reached out to hug her too, but she just fixed him with this look that said,  "Well?" Jesus met her eyes for a few seconds, and then said, loud enough that I knew he was talking to us, despite never breaking eye contact with Martha, "Let's go to the cemetery."
It took a bit to get us all loaded in, especially when the other visitors in the house saw us all going out to the cars with Mary and Martha, assuming we were taking them somewhere else to grieve, and no one could decide who was close enough family to be invited along. We were on our way, but when we got there, other cars had somehow beaten us there. We made straight for the mausoleum where Lazarus was being stored. As we all got out, Jesus looked at Martha and said, "You know your brother isn't gone forever?"
"I know he'll be back at the resurrection." she muttered.
"I am the resurrection," Jesus replied, but he said it in a way that made it feel like a whole conversation with just those words. He looked back at the mausoleum and said, "open it up"
Martha ran forward to say that it was too late, it had been days since he'd died, and the smell would have been too much. Jesus pushed on though, and as the doors were automatic sliders, leaving him standing just outside. He stood for a moment, and then shouted "Lazarus, come out!"
It was a few very long moments of tense doubt as we stood there in the silence Jesus' words left, when slowly, out of the dark if the tomb, out stumbled Lazarus. Slowly, but alive. It was an amazing moment, and everyone was smiling. I couldn't believe it myself, but the smile on my face died when I saw the looks on the faces of the religious leaders who were there.

Their faces stopped me cold. Because I swear to you, they looked like death

Saturday, March 21, 2015

Caught

One night, Jesus was teaching in the town square, when a group of men came dragging a woman. She'd been beaten and and looked torn.

"This woman has killed her unborn child. She is a murderess, and we'd like to hang her at a tree as a warning to others, what do you say, Jesus?"

The gathered crowd looked back and forth between the men holding the woman, and Jesus. They waited to see what he would do or say. Instead, he bent down to pick something up. It was a can of spray paint someone had left behind. He began to idly draw something on the sidewalk. I couldn't see what it was from where I was standing.

After several silent and tense minutes went by, where the only sound that could be heard was the woman sobbing, of the the men finally shouted, "WELL?!"

Jesus calmly looked up, like he'd been waiting for them, and said, "Whichever one of you have never sinned, you can be the first one to hang the rope."

A stunned silence came over the scene, even the woman sat silently. One by one, the group of men dropped away, starting with the oldest. Finally, the man who had shouted at Jesus, and was still holding the woman by the hair, looked around, realized he was alone, and stormed away, spitting as he did.

Jesus walked over to the woman, took her by the hand, and helped her up. He looked her in the eye with this expression that I don't think I could ever describe properly. It was something of love and sadness, but so deep it almost made me weep. He said to her, "My daughter, who still accuses you?"

She looked around, almost confused, she scanned the audience, and no one would meet her eye. She looked back to Jesus, and she looked like she was trying to speak, but then started to cry again, shaking her head no. Jesus took her by the shoulders, looked at her until her eyes met his, and he said, "No go and sin no more."

Late Night Visitation

Late one night, after most of us had gone to bed, a man named Nicodemus, who was a high ranking official in the federal government, came to visit Jesus. He didn't mince words.


"Look, there's a group of us who think that you're the real thing, but we're not going to stick our necks out for just anybody. We have to know for sure that you're not going to pull us into some mess. The last thing we need is for the governors to start making excuses to have people disappear into black bags never to be heard from again."


Several of us were still sitting around. Peter, James, John, and myself. I think they were trying to get some time in to ask Jesus some stuff about what he'd said earlier in the day. Me, I just couldn't sleep. Regardless of why we were up, Jesus' reply left us more than a little confused.


"The only people who will make it in my new Kingdom are the ones who are babies. Idiot kids and layabouts."


Nicodemus looked at us, like maybe we were in on some joke Jesus was playing. Understandably enough, I guess, but we were just as confused as he was.


"I... don't understand, are you saying you're going to start some child army? Like the guys in Africa and South America?"


Jesus did something that I hadn't really seen him do much yet (he'd seem to get a little more free with it as time went on). He rolled his eyes.


"No. I mean the only way you're going to get in on this is if you're starting over. You're in on the foundation. There's a hurricane coming, and it's going to go where it goes. You can either be a child of the wind, or you can be the old buildings."


"I don't get it" (heck, WE didn't get it, and we were supposed to be the core circle)


Jesus slapped his hands on his knees and let out a breath that was half growl and half laugh. "You're supposed to be a teacher and a leader, and you don't get these basic things? I'm talking to you about things you should know, and see everyday. I'm trying to put it in words you can understand, and you're not even meeting me halfway. If I can't talk to you about things of this Earth, things that you would see on the news, how are you going to understand if I start talking about things of Heaven? If I go so far as to tell you that the Son of Man must be lifted up, just like Moses lifted up the snake in the desert, I'm showing you my hand and trying to let you in on God's plan, but I honestly don't think you'd get it."


Nicodemus didn't stay much longer, and when he left, I think he was even more frustrated than when he'd shown up. I've got to give it to him, though, later when things got real tough, he was one who stepped up when we would have least expected it.

Looking back though, I finally understand what Jesus was saying that night. He was talking about change. The world wasn't going to be the same. God had given us his own son, and while we were just thinking it was going to be a new prophet, it was like the storm of heaven, and anyone who was willing to sign up would get in on the ground floor, experiencing a whole new life.